new post?

I'm thinking about reviving this old blog for some reason. Just to have a journal I guess. I kind of miss it. I'm also doing some stuff that I don't normally talk about on the internet-I won't even offer any clues-but I will say it has nothing whatsoever to do with writing, fiction, whatever. It's more personal and closer to my heart. Sometimes you have to keep certain pieces of yourself just for yourself and those people who you are closest to. Meaning, people you actually know it real life. People who have nothing to do with the writing gig. You know, REGULAR people, who care about things other than pimping their wares and wanting something from you that you may not have the time or desire to give. Because, I've discovered that's really what writing is about. Most writers have no desire to truly be your friends. They want you to promote them, support them, etc, often without returning the favor. I wish someone had told me that in the beginning. Would have saved me a bit of heartache. But, live and learn, right? As a result of learning things the hard way, I most definitely will not forget the lessons. Concentrate on the readers. Fuck other writers. They only want to eat you alive.

But anyway. It's nearing 4:30 AM and I have no plans for sleeping any time soon. So, here I am, rambling whatever happens to come into my head. Maybe I'll try to jazz this place up a bit. Clean up the cobwebs, maybe redecorate the walls. I don't know. Ultimately I may prove to be just too lazy to mess with it, but that's okay too. It works just fine the way it is.

I think I'll probably be back soon. Hopefully. Maybe. We'll see. If this inhuman bout of insomnia lasts, it could become a regular thing again. The fiction that I've stopped writing (mostly) will be replaced with...I guess this is nonfiction? But still the wheels turn. Sorry is this is nonsensical. Like I said, 4:30 AM.

Go hug someone super hard. Give them a hug they'll never forget, because those are the best kinds. Just watch out for the knives.

whoa. back from the dead.

Yep, blogger finally hooked me up with my info for this dang thing. two years later. wow. not sure how often I'll post here, as I have my wordpress page now, but I figure I can still keep this for random ramblings that have nothing to do with my career. probably won't be of interest to anyone else but me, but gathering your thoughts now and then is a good thing, even if no one else reads it.

anyway...

something I've been thinking about lately is how we've grown into this culture of hate and dismissiveness (if that's even a real word.)

what I mean by that is most evident on place like facebook. people have these lame full-on wars about pretty much anything anyone says that they don't agree with and it has left me wanting to just delete my personal page on many days.

I'm a very liberal democrat. the things I post reflect that. just because I voice certain opinions about certain things doesn't mean I'm looking for a fight. I never check out what other people are posting and go, "well goddammit, I disagree and I'm gonna tell this person what a fucking moron they are." I figure, it's they're page, they think differently about things-whatever.

I just wish everyone had the same mentality. I can't even count the times people have come to my page for the sole purpose of fighting with me about stupid shit. and it's almost exclusively people who don't talk to me otherwise.

so, yeah, I'm an idiot and piece of shit because I don't think like you do.

that's what I mean when I say a culture of hate. people are big and bad behind their computers, aren't they? but it's a bummer when people threaten to not read my books or whatever because as an american voter, I am registered differently than they are. that's a load of horse shit right there.

I guess I just wish people would have the same respect for other peoples opinions and maybe-I don't know-take to their own pages to rant or whatever. you know, like I do.

ok, that's enough about that for now. hopefully it made a little sense.

otherwise, it's raining again. I'm really getting anxious for summer. I need some vitamin D in my life for sure.

if anyone out there in the ether happens upon this blog, I hope you are well and happy and doing what you love to do most.

peace!